Out of desperation, I obtained some Ketamine. I carefully measured a dose that was somewhere between theraputic and recreational.
I had the experience of seeing myself in the third person, as a narrator: "look at him," I said about my body, "just lying there on the couch."
Time passed and I returned to my normal awareness.
There was no noticible effect on my depression. Many months later, it gradually abated.
Out of desperation, I obtained some Ketamine. I carefully measured a dose that was somewhere between theraputic and recreational.
I had the experience of seeing myself in the third person, as a narrator: "look at him," I said about my body, "just lying there on the couch."
Time passed and I returned to my normal awareness.
There was no noticible effect on my depression. Many months later, it gradually abated.